Thursday, February 26, 2015

Naked In/Naked Out: Job, Jobs, Baptism, and Trailer Hitches on Hearses

NOTE:  This post originally was posted in a Facebook discussion on the Book of Job that I'm writing during Lent.  You can follow the discussion on Facebook using the hashtag ‪#‎JoelsJobJourney‬

I have always been drawn to Job's statement as he begins his mourning in 1:21: 

“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
and naked I will depart.
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
may the name of the Lord be praised.”

I was listening to the radio Tuesday as I drove and the voice coming out of the speaker was remembering Steve Jobs the founder of electronics giant Apple. The rememberance was rather unremarkable, but the quote from Mr. Jobs was remarkable to me. 

"Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."

Jobs sounds exactly like Job and is offering the same perspective on life - Naked In / Naked Out. It is a way of looking at life that has the potential to free us from much of the anxiety, fear and striving that tends to consume our human existence.

While thinking about this Naked In / Naked Out philosophy I was reminded of a similar thing I learned a few years back from James Alison. Alison put it this way...the purpose of our Baptism is to set us free. He reasoned that in baptism we are put to death and brought back to life so in the end what can "they" do to you? What can "they" do to a dead man/woman? In essence the life in Christ we are resurrected to in baptism is one where we can live with nothing to gain, nothing to lose, and nothing to prove.

The final place where I have heard the echo of Job's Naked In / Naked out statement is in Kristian Bush's song "Trailer Hitch." 

"I don’t know why, know why
Everybody wanna die rich
Diamonds, Champagne,
Work your way down that list.
We try, everybody tries
Tries to fit into that ditch
You can’t take it with you when you go
Never seen a hearse with a trailer hitch
Never seen a hearse with a trailer hitch."

So in the end the echo of Job's words come to us from the oldest book in the Bible, to the founder of a computer company, a Catholic Theologian, and a country singer all saying Naked In / Naked Out. It's all a gift - may the name of the Lord be praised.

Joel K

Monday, February 23, 2015

#JoelsJobJourney

For Lent the church I am a member of is going through the Book of Job in a series titled: " The Journey of Suffering." Last night was the first sermon on Chapters 1 & 2. When the message finished I was struck with how much there is in this book, not only it's sheer length, but the number of questions it raises...and in some ways leaves unanswered. 
So as my faith community journeys thru Job I will be journeying with them, and posting a bit on Facebook. I will be posting the questions raised in my mind and some perspectives from others that have struggled with Job. If you want to follow along on Facebook I'll be using the hashtag ‪#‎JoelsJobJourney‬ .

Joel K

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

To live and Pro-Life in Anchorage.

" But I tell you to love your enemies, and pray for those that persecute you"
- Jesus (Matt. 5:44)

"Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse."
- Paul (Rom. 12:14)

Violence and death seem to be everywhere these days, or at least it feels like that to me.  2015 has opened with the national and international news being filled with ISIS beheadings, terror attacks in Paris and Copenhagen, the "war" on terrorism, and the residual coverage of  Ferguson and Eric Garner.  The local news in Anchorage hasn't been any better.  Daily it seems the we hear of a new shooting or murder in the city.  In fact after 2014 being the lowest year for murder in Alaska's largest city in 20 years (1), 2015 started with 31 firearm incidents with "credible evidence," 11 shootings, and 4 murders (all in one week) in January (2).  As of this writing the city has seen 10 homicides this year after a total of 13 last year (3).  It has been a violent year around the world, and close to home.

How do we respond to all this violence and death?  It is a question I have been asking myself a lot in recent weeks.  I have watched online where the typical (maybe even the prevailing) response seems to be the establishment of blame.  I have overheard the citizens of my city recoil in shock that the gunfire has erupted in their neighborhood.  I have noticed the tendency to quickly dismiss the departed as drug dealers, gang members, terrorists, targets, or Muslims.  In each case the "othering" of the victims and/or those doing the shooting has left me feeling empty.  The reactions that support the idea of redemptive violence do nothing to fill the void.  The trite dismissal of those departed as getting what they deserve only makes the chasm in my soul larger.

I grew up in a world were I was taught to be "pro-life."  In the context of that upbringing this meant believing that life starts at conception and that no baby should be aborted - something I still believe.  Also while I was growing up I was taught that we didn't just kill animals unless it was for population control (deer) or they were raised for the purpose of food (cows, chickens, etc.).  I was taught that all life sacred and not disposable.  However, when I think back to those formative years, and reflect on what I'm hearing now, it seems that those of us who would say we are "pro-life" often value life more in some circumstances than others.  It appears to me that if you are a fetus the value on your life is high, but if your a 14 year old kid shot in a drug deal your life is less valuable or even expendable.  If you are a person of authority (solider/police officer) your life is deemed more important than others.  I get the feeling that if your a Christian your life is somehow more valuable than a Muslim.  It appears to me that we are often/always ranking the value of other peoples lives.  What changed since conception?  Does personal choice, circumstance, beliefs, or position change the value of ones life?

How should we be responding to the violence in our world and our city?  Is the biblical response distancing ourselves from those involved based on proximity, perceived guilt, difference in beliefs or color - in short their "otherness."?  Is the righteous response more violence, with the hope that it will bring about an end?  Is the correct response to just continue on like nothing has happened?  How do we live a life, and faith, that is holistically pro-life?

In Genesis 4 we read about the murder of Able by Cain.  A couple things in that passage cause me to wonder about our response.  First of all God does not kill Cain.  Cain is punished, but God does not enter into redemptive violence.  Furthermore, God marks Cain so that no one else will kill him for his sins either.  God does not see the answer to Abel's murder to be more violence.  Second, Abel's blood cries out from the ground and God hears it.  How often are those that are killed in war, in terrorism, in a parking lot in our city just a news story to us?  Who often do we see the death around us as a statistic?  Do we stop to hear the blood of those slain crying out to God, and to us, from the ground?

Around the globe and around my city there is blood crying out to us from the ground.  What is it saying?  How do we bear witness to those departed?  How do we honor life, and life lost?  Can we choose to mourn those who have died without establishing blame...just mourn that a human life - a life created by God in in His image - that has ended?  When was the last time we stopped in our Sunday worship services, or in our daily lives, to pray for the people we often think of as crime statistics? Can we open up our eyes and hearts to bear witness to the violence around us?  Can we pray for the victims and the perpetrators?  Can we cry out to God to make it stop?

Joel K

"War what is it good for?  Absolutely nothing"
- Edwin Starr


(1) - http://www.adn.com/article/20150103/anchorage-sees-13-homicides-2014-fewest-2-decades
(2) - http://www.adn.com/article/20150129/spike-violent-crime-be-met-police-shakedowns
(3) - Number based on a search of http://www.raidsonline.com linked from the Anchorage Police Department website.

Friday, January 23, 2015

LAMENT

WARNING:  IT IS GONNA GET HONEST IN HERE
The post below was written a month ago while I was on vacation in Michigan over the holidays.  I have been waffling on posting it.  In the end, inspired by the Keep it 100 segment on The Nightly Show with Larry Wilmore (which you all should check out), honesty won out.  #keepit100

Today (Sunday Dec. 28, 2014) I listened to a sermon by Nate Bull at Centerpoint Church in Kalamazoo, MI.  Preaching out of Exodus 33 he challenged the congregation to recommit their lives to following Jesus in 2015.  It was an excellent message about seeking God's place in your life and what it means to believe in a God that is light and contains no darkness at all. 

During the message Pastor Bull quoted an author (which was uncredited, unless I missed it) as saying, "God has shown his willingness to bless something He will not inhabit."  Twenty years of ministry and four decades of life tells me this is true (1). The scriptures also show this to be true.  The statement itself is not what has been nagging at me from the second I got out of the service till the time I took out my iPad unable to sleep 12 hours later.  The bit that I can't reconcile is what if God does neither?  What if He doesn't bless or inhabit a life, a ministry, a place, a neighborhood, a season?

This is no abstract theological puzzle (I love those, but never have they kept me up at night).  These questions, and the tears they induced (which I choked back as to not embarrass myself or the family members whose church I was visiting) as I walked out of the auditorium, are very real.  For a long time now I have felt like God is very distant (other than in fleeting moments) and that I have been left alone in my struggle with Him and life.  The best way I know to describe it is that I am tired of fighting.  After a couple of years in which the demands of work and ministry (even when your full time job is ministry the reality is some things are just work, anyone who says different is not telling you the truth), church leadership, as well as family, have left me too tired to fight anymore.  Two years of my wife fighting cancer depleted me.  The ministry I helped found and lead has undergone massive changes that daily leave me feeling stretched beyond my capacity to guide it.  The youth that our ministry serves are among some of the most voiceless in my city and my throat is horse from being a voice for them, with them and to them.  My desire to try to lead change or minister in my home congregation has disappeared in a puff of smoke.  All in all, my spiritual fervor has dwindled to a faint flicker - a spark where a fire used to be.

Those that know me well know me as a determined fighter.  I have always been pushing and struggling, willing to fight to get things done.  In the early days of Parachutes when asked by my boss to write a job description I took a Sharpie and scrawled on a Post-It note "whatever it takes."  I have often joked that my walk up song, if I were a Major League Baseball player, would be The Nightwatchmen's "Whatever it takes."  For years I was willing to do anything and everything (often to the detriment of my family) to make sure Parachutes survived and that I was   ministering in my church and neighborhood the best that I could.

In recent months there has been a sharp contrast in my approach to life.  As I have written before, I experienced a bout with anxiety and depression this past fall and the residue of those struggles continues.  I often think about something I scratched out as I worked through those issues, again written in Sharpie marker: "I have never felt so weak."  And so it was again today.  I feel weak.  I feel like God is neither blessing me or inhabiting my body, my life, my ministry, my family or my mind.  I feel like God has forsaken me.

I grew up in a world were I was told that if you work hard and do what God asks you to do you will be blessed....maybe even inhabited.  But my question is, what if you have worked hard and done what you thought God has asked you to do and in the end all you are is tired?  What if the blessings you have received are cancer, a job that pays almost exactly the same as it did when you took it 14 years ago (and pays 1/4 to 1/3 of what others in the field get paid), a 40 year old mobile home, obscurity, and exhaustion.  It's damn hard to find the blessing in that! 

So if God is out there blessing things, things that He isn't even going to inhabit, why do I feel like I have served the best I can and don't feel blessed, or inhabited, just burned out?  Why do I feel like Jason Batemans character in the film This Is Where I Leave You when he says, Im too old to have this much nothing?

I'm taking a pretty big risk throwing this out on the Internet.  My family reads this thing.  My wife's family reads this.  I have supporters that read this.  Volunteers and board members read this.  Anyone could read this, it's the worldwide web after all.  Frankly, that has been part of my struggle.  I feel like as a leader I can't share my struggle easily or at all.  Making matters worse is a Christian culture that is quick to arrive at easy answers.  I know that some of you reading this are already formulating the words to share with me that "I am blessed" and to "look what God has done" and a hundred more cliches.  Trust me I know them all because I say them to myself every day and the reality is I still feel like God has walked away from me.

In Lamentations God's people cry out to Him and rail against Him for leaving them.  In that entire book God never speaks.  He leaves space for the cry.  The cry is so important that He lets it be.  One third of the Psalms are Laments.  Lamenting is part of faith, and that gives me some comfort.  On the other hand lamenting sucks!  God's people are in the desert for 40 years.  Being in the desert sucks!

So for 2015 I am not rededicating myself to God...I'm being honest about my Lament and asking God to honor it...but I'm pretty tired of the silence and I wouldn't mind a blessing or inhabitation either.

Joel K

Doubt is the way of faith sometimes
                                    - Five Oclock People


(1)  I do think this statement is limited because God could choose to do neither.  Pastor Bull never examined this other option leading the listener to believe God is either blessing or inhabiting things/people/situations, etc., or both inhabiting and blessing, but not neither.  The option for God to remove both His blessing and inhabitation was not even alluded to.

Monday, January 19, 2015

Anchorage and Antioch: Reflections on MLK day and the segregation of the church

I live in a very diverse city.  Anchorage, AK boasts the most diverse census tract in the United States (1) and two of the more diverse High Schools in America (2).  In the Anchorage School District 93 different languages are spoken (3).  I could go on with stats, but I think Russian Orthodox Archpriest Michael Oleksa sums it up when he noted, “The world has come to Anchorage.” (4)

I have been thinking about my cities amazing diversity today as well as an event that happened over fifty years ago.  In 1963, just months after delivering his “I Have a Dream” speech, Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. spoke at Western Michigan University.  Following the address was a question and answer session.  In that session the President of the University asked Dr. King a series of questions.  It is this exchange from the question and answer section that has been on my mind today:

“President Miller:
Don't you feel that integration can only be started and realized in the Christian church, not in schools or by other means? This would be a means of seeing just who are true Christians.

Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.:
As a preacher, I would certainly have to agree with this. I must admit that I have gone through those moments when I was greatly disappointed with the church and what it has done in this period of social change. We must face the fact that in America, the church is still the most segregated major institution in America. At 11:00 on Sunday morning when we stand and sing and Christ has no east or west, we stand at the most segregated hour in this nation. This is tragic. Nobody of honesty can overlook this. Now, I'm sure that if the church had taken a stronger stand all along, we wouldn't have many of the problems that we have. The first way that the church can repent, the first way that it can move out into the arena of social reform is to remove the yoke of segregation from its own body. Now, I'm not saying that society must sit down and wait on a spiritual and moribund church as we've so often seen. I think it should have started in the church, but since it didn't start in the church, our society needed to move on. The church, itself, will stand under the judgement of God. Now that the mistake of the past has been made, I think that the opportunity of the future is to really go out and to transform American society, and where else is there a better place than in the institution that should serve as the moral guardian of the community. The institution that should preach brotherhood and make it a reality within its own body.” (5)

The reason this has been on my mind is the simple fact that Dr. King’s words are true in my life.  The lease diverse place I go each week is my church.  My work life is very diverse, my neighborhood places me (a white middle-age male) in the minority, and the shops I frequent are reflections of the city at large.  However, my church – while well intentioned (diversity is one of our stated goals), and not entirely without diversity – is the least diverse place in my life.

While Dr. King’s words over 50 years ago should have been a wake up call for the American church I am not sure that in the following years much was done on a large scale to make his statement not just as true today as it was when he first uttered it.  In fact I think that the Church Growth movement begun by Donald McGavran in the 1950’s and continuing into our present day relied on principle of homogeneity that made matters worse.  McGavran wrote, “People like to become Christians without crossing racial, linguistic or class barriers.”  His protégé, C. Peter Wagner, stated it even more directly when he wrote, “segregation is a desired end.” (6)  While the leaders of the Church Growth movement had the spread of the gospel in mind, the end result was the American church looking less like Dr. King’s dream, or the church in the Book of Acts, and more like a niche marketed product devised to segregate people.

Our human nature may make McGavran’s statement that “People like to become Christians without crossing racial, linguistic or class barriers” true, but neither the theory, or the practice of segregation, is what we see in the Bible.  Ray Bakke notes in his book A Theology as Big as the City” (7) that in Acts 1-12 we see Pentecost unfold as the church moves from being multi-lingual to multi-cultural.  By the time we get to chapter 11 and we read about the church in Antioch and see a group of Jesus followers in a very divers city (3rd largest city in the Roman empire divided into Greek, Syrian, Jewish, Latin and African sectors) that has a pastoral leadership team of 5 pastors from 3 continents.  The church in Antioch is very diverse and it is in this context – a diverse church, in a diverse city, with a diverse leadership team – where the followers of Jesus are first called Christians.  Could it be that it is this type of incarnation that finally fulfills what begins on the day of Pentecost? 

So today as Dr. King’s observations ring in our ears from over 50 years ago and the legacy of Antioch echoes down from the early days of the faith, all of us who desire to follow Jesus should take a long hard look in the mirror and ask a few questions about how we are doing in our “Institution(s) that should preach brotherhood and make it a reality within its own body.”



(3)   About the Anchorage School District, Anchorage School District, http://asdk12.org/aboutasd/, (accessed 18 June 2014).
(4)   Communicating Across Cultures with Father Oleksa, Alaska Staff Development Network, 30 October 2013 – 2 November 2013, BP Energy Center, Anchorage, Alaska.
(6)   Donald McGavran and C. Peter Wagner taken from citations in Slow Church: Cultivating a Community in the patient Way of Jesus by C. Christopher Smith & John Pattison.  Downers Grove, IL: IVP Books. 2014.  Pg. 47 (Chapter 2, Terroir: Taste and See contains a good summery of the Church Growth Movement).


Monday, December 22, 2014

Christmas from Below

"It's like an angel starts singing
An old gospel song
In that part of town where
No angel belongs"
                           - Over the Rhine "First Snowfall"

With only days till Christmas many of us are thinking about that first Noel and imagining idealistic scenes of Jesus' birth.  However, the reality may have been different.  Jesus was likely born into the chaos of a typical Jewish home - right into the busyness of life.  The first people that came to witness the nativity and spread the word were people that had no voice in the culture - shepherds.  The later visitors from the East were likely decedents from Israel's most hated enemies the Assyrian Empire.  Those facts alone might cause us to view Jesus' birth as a bit more of an arrival in our world than a Hallmark card nativity.

If there is room at Jesus birth for His enemies, can we make room for ours?
If those without a voice were first to speak of the new born king, then who in our world, that is not listened to, might have something to say that we need to hear?
If Jesus was birthed into busyness and chaos, can we find him in our busyness and chaos?

In among the wave of Christmas cards I have have pulled out of the mailbox this holiday season was a message from my friends over at www.streetpsalms.org in which they invited the readers to think about Jesus, and Christmas, from below.  I am passing it along to you as a gift and a place to reflect about a Jesus who "Became flesh and blood, and moved into the neighborhood" (John 1:14 - the Message).

Merry Christmas!
Joel K


ASIAN-BORN
Middle East is Asiatic
Nearly 60% of the world is Asian born.*

MIXED RACE HERITAGE
Tamar and Rahab were Canaanites
Ruth is Moabite
Bathsheba is Hittite
“Multi-racial” is the fastest growing demographic in the U.S.

GRAND MOTHERS of CHRISTMAS
Tamar – prostitute
Rahab – prostitute
Ruth – legacy of incest
Bathsheba – murderous affair
4 million women and children are victims of the sex trade worldwide each year.

SHAMEFUL BIRTH
Not everyone bought the birth story
79% of births to teenagers in U.S. are outside of marriage, often resulting in the stigma of being a “bastard” child.

TEENAGE MOTHER
Mary was probably 13
One million teenagers become pregnant each year in the U.S.

POOR
Temple offering of the poor
1.7 million U.S. children live in families that earn less than $6,645 a year (family of five).

POLITICAL REFUGEE
Flees persecution to Egypt
50 million people in the world have been forced to flee their homes in the last 10 years.

IMMIGRANT
Returns to Isreal
8.7 million undocumented immigrants live in the U.S.

DRUNKARD AND GLUTTON
A friend of “sinners”
8 million suffer from alcoholism and another 15 million with drug dependency.

MENTALLY ILL
His family thought he was out of his mind
15% suffer from serious mental disorders in U.S.

URBAN
Went through the “cities” of Galilee
More than 50% of the world lives in cities.  By 2050, 70% will be urban, young, and poor.

HOMELESS
No place to lay his head
3 million men, women and children were homeless last year in the U.S.

OUTLAW
Broke Sabbath laws
2.3 million are in prison in the U.S., up form 300,000 in 1976.  One in three black male babies are expected to be in prison during his lifetime.

DESPISED AND REJECTED
Seen as cursed by God
Leading motivations for hate crimes in U.S. are race (53%), religion (16%), sexual orientation (15%).

INNOCENT VICTIM
Blameless
Every 11 minutes a child is reported abused or neglected, nearly 3 million.

FORSAKEN BY FATHER
My God, My God
Almost 25% of 72 million young people in the U.S. live without their fathers.  The percentage is 50% for African Americans.

MURDER VICTIM
Crucified
Black males (14-24) make up 1% of the U.S. population but 30% of all homicides.

RESURRECTED AS A
WOUNDED HEALER
Shows Thomas his eternal wounds
50% of U.S. citizens suffer a chronic medical condition.  5 million suffer from chronic pain.  15% of veterans suffer severe depresson/PTSD.


*Statistics and individual citations can be found in Geography of Grace, Chapter 2 (Rocke and Van Dyke, Street Psalms Press 2012)

Thursday, December 4, 2014

In Praise of Advent OR Why You Should Not Be Singing Christmas Songs Three Days After Thanksgiving

"O come, O Come, Emmanuel"

Last weekend Saturday Night Live re-ran an episode from earlier this season with host Chris Rock.  In Rock's opening monologue he rants about how we Americans commercialize everything - even the "Jesus Birthday Season" that celebrates the "least materialistic person that ever lived" with greed and consumerism. (You can watch the whole rant at: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYZLKqGhSZs - the Christmas section runs from apx. 4:20 to 6:18).  While the observation on consumerism is a wonderful point, it is the highlighting of the "Jesus Birthday Season" that really caught my attention.  While we have that season as a culture, we don't have it in the church calendar.  Lent, the weeks leading up to Christmas, are about longing for Jesus to come into the world, into our lives, into all the places we have a hard time imagining He can arrive.  Advent is about admitting that Jesus needs to come into our world and that the world is not the way it should be - it is about Jesus needing to enter our lives and that our lives are not the way they should be.


Rob Bell in an excellent article, Why Should We Care About Advent? (1), notes: 
"Advent, then, is a season. Lots of people know about holidays—one day a year set apart. 
The church calendar is about seasons, 
whole periods of time we enter into with a specific cry, 
a particular intention, for a reason.

Advent is about anticipating the birth of Christ.
It’s about longing, desire, that which is yet to come.
That which isn’t here yet. 
And so we wait, expectantly. Together. With an ache. 
Because all is not right. Something is missing."

The idea of waiting is not part of our cultural Christmas experience.  The local Christmas music radio station in Anchorage began playing 24-hour Christmas music on November 4 this year.  Christmas decorations were on offer in stores and holiday ads were running on TV before Halloween even happened.  Our culture lures us into beginning Christmas earlier and earlier so that we can cram all the warm-hearted feelings, good will, joyful celebration, and holiday goodness into the longest possible "Jesus Birthday Season" without the waiting, the longing, and the reality of of our world and our lives needing the arrival of Jesus.  We remove a season of waiting for a season of having.


During last weeks episode of the Homebrewed Christianity podcast (2) host Bo Sanders expressed that the church should be the least "Christmasy" place during Advent because we should be calling people back from the instant gratification of a prolonged Christmas to Advent, a season of waiting and anticipating.  However, in many churches the singing of Christmas songs begins only a couple days after Thanksgiving (my favorite Holiday, which is in jeopardy of becoming extinct in the midst of a prolonged Halloween "season," early-onset Christmas, and the crush of an ever-expanding Black Friday).  Sanders further noted on his blog that "Consumerism, has a numbing effect that dulls our senses and saps our energy. This happens in 3 predictable phases.
·  Alienation
·  Disillusionment
·  Resignation."

He went on to explain that "Alienation is the result of humans being commodified and thus separated from that which they produce. It also isolates us from one another as we are simultaneously objectified as consumers and subjected to an onslaught of ads that inform us we are not good enough, we don’t have enough and that the thing we don’t have would make us happy-attractive-successful.  This leads to disillusionment because we buy stuff, we pay for services, we upgrade, we super-size … and yet it does not satisfy...The final stage is resignation. The machine is too big. It feels like we are just cogs in a giant mechanism of consumption, corruption and growing disparity. The game is rigged and we know it. But we need stuff so we work more than we ever have and are less satisfied. We watch the news and see how bad is out there and we want to retreat into our screens and games. From Candy Crush to Fantasy Football we are active participants relegated to passive spectators." (read the entire blog at: http://homebrewedchristianity.com/2014/11/27/wake-up-its-time-for-advent/)

So as we move steadily into the Advent Season we have a choice - rush to Christmas or linger in Advent.  We can wisk away the waiting or linger in the longing for Jesus to come into our world and lives to be Emmanuel, God with us.  We can have an Advent season and a Christmas day or the "Jesus Birthday Season."  It is our choice.

 Joel K

"The Waiting is the hardest part."
- Tom Petty


(1)  Read more at: http://www.relevantmagazine.com/god/deeper-walk/features/23640-why-advent#jx0UVcrcmkpAcX6H.99

(2) Listen to the full Podcast at: http://homebrewedchristianity.com/2014/11/26/eat-more-turkey-here-is-some-sermon-prep/